What if ‘I like you”

“Dheere Dheere se meri jindagi me aana , Dheere Dheere se mere dil ko………”

Most of the Guys conditions are exactly the same since valentine’s day comes after a rigorous period of 7 days in which you have to make efforts each coming day.The process is rather ‘Despacito’- Very Slowly and for true lovers its like a years who waits for this day eagerly. I will begin the story but before lets see some simple Questions i.e What is love? How do you fee you are in love? and Any person who hasn’t love , Can they define it?

As a matter of fact , everyone in ours age falls in love atleast once because Till now every people i met ,has a story to tell. Hence the conclusion is anyone can define love.I exclusively feel that love can’t be defined so can it be expressed? Well, some of you may say Yes , why not. Yes it can be but its a task which is very difficult. Ask yourself how many times you have expressed your love infront of the person you love.One of my friend says :

‘I Love you – me sabse badi dilemma ye hai ki jisko bolte ho usko sayad tum pyar nhi krte bas attraction hota hai , par jisse sacche dil se pyar krte ho sayad use kabhi bol nhi pate’

I am not stating this statement universally acknowledged and to what extent it is true i don’t know but it is truth that most of the love story ends unexpressed , in general terms you can call it one sided. Lets try to find out the answer to above questions below in a story – A beginning of new love.

That day particularly classes held upto late and continous too. I was exasperated by the lectures so just after the class was dismissed , i was the first one to come out of the arts block near the tree which opens into garden further to have a glimpse of the surroundings to relieve my eyes.Still there was some time left in sunset.The clouds near the sun seems to be coloured by red vaguely which decreases with the increase in distance.The rays of sun even now is nourishing some parts of the grass and people who were sitting undearneath it. there were not much students left at the dawn in the college. those who were there , also packing up as their family members must be waiting for them who is the resident of Delhi only. others living in PG or flats are either making plans to go to movie or some other parks or some resturant to have their evening meal.The birds there were engaged in their games, chirping loudly and sometimes slowly due to the interest in games. I was in no hurry as neither i belong to Delhi nor i live in PGs as i got hostel recently which is within few foot from here. Meanwhile a parrot couple intervened my sight who were looking for a perfect spot somewhere in the branches of Ashoka tree flying together in no hurry. while looking all these , my eye became colinear with the sun and its brightness made me to close my eyes with my both hands. Even at the dusk , sunrays can eclipse your eyes , beware. Few seconds has lapsed like this when I tried to take apart my both the hands , slowly and stealthily. I was stunned , a obscure picture of girl appeared before me which became crystal clear after i cleaned the glass of my goggles and rubbed my eyes with both the hands in shape of fists as children does while weeping. Yes , a girl was there whose beauty was again going to make my eyes blink and wink.

Where is science block ? She asked!

I stood still as if I was mesmerized by her and her beauty. Her eyes has a special type of glitter without the use of liner , looking for fun which was enough to hold me still as I was a statue of wax.To maintain eye contact is one of the impossible task at this time.The sunlight which falls on her fair face was adding more beauty similar to , someone has throwm more light on full moon have appeared on Purnima .A light red coulored lipstics was evenly spread on her light pink lips which was like a bee has spread nectar there gently.I don’t have much knowledge about girls hair style but at that time it is like ‘puff’ occupying the forehead supported with a clip from the either side and rest was swinging besides the ear , the ear which wore earrings , small and pointed enough to reflect light to my face.I was jealous of her ear , as they can play with her soft hair anytime they want and i can’t, i smiled at my this funny thought.

Hey you ? I am asking something. She waved her hand infront of me when she saw smiling me with no reason.

My reverie was broken suddenly. yee….ssss ,what ? I asked with a stammering voice out of nervousness.

Where is science block? She asked again and this time with some anguish.

Go straight and then turn to the left. I replied without wasting a moment.

Thank you , she said with 80% anguish and 20 % irritation and gave a fake smile.I could hear saying her ‘pagal hai kya’ after going some distance.

what do you expect when you will reply someone after 2 minutes , I thought myself.

I was now unstoppable or rather my thought. I started making calculations. My height is 5ft 6 inches , she might be 5ft 2 inches ..not a bad match. Moreover the way in which she said Thank you , is still echoeing in my ears , her voice appears to be the sweetest one , which you can hear for hours with being bored. Before I could make some more calculations about her , my friend came storming towards me.

What the hell in the world is wrong with you ? We are waiting at the gate for 10 minutes and you , here giggling all alone like a mad. one of them rebuked me.

What for? I asked in innocent tone.

You forgot , you promished to give a treat ?

Sorry brother , i forgot ..next day for sure.

Your Next day will never come . By the way what are you doing here alone. Nearly all the students departed for their home.

I think , I have seen a Angel. I replied madly without thinking for a moment.

What rubbish . Its only in the stories of Grandma. i know you are missing your childhood, Don’t you?

How can I tell him that if he would have seen her , his remark were :

( sahi me yaar, Dadi sahi kaha krti thi , One day you will meet an angel who will fulfil your all wishes if you will behave good)

Nothing like that , i will wait here to relish the scene of sunset. I excused.

Okay so wait for your angel who is never going to come, i am going . he frowned at me and went away.

I sat beneath the tree thinking about her. Darkness was approaching fast. I fixed my sight on two things the first on setting sun and the other in direction which she went.The college turned into desolate place now which a few moments ago was a centre of great hustle and bustle. I can’t locate a couple parrot now as they might be busy in searching home and other comfort for the new member coming in the family. Children birds also receded into their nest to do the homework as their parents intervened in the game and they left the game uncompleted with a promise to resume it on other day which never happens. Their is no any logic or tradition to make a wish seeing the setting sun but I did. The darkness has already blanketed the surroundings. Amidst all these , i was sitting alone , still in the ardent hope to meet her. Some frogs croaked and some crickets scrapped. At that time , it too soothed me as even there are some companions left to disintegrate the feeling of loneliness.

While i was thinking all this , i felt a shadow approaching towards me.I immediately looked at the back. I couldn’t believe on my eyes when i saw her standing infront of me.Yes she was there ..I didn’t know how to react. i was surprised but even more , i was confused. My heartbeat rose to abnormal and my face changed colors .Same face , same gesture , same beauty only the expression in her eyes changed from Fun to emotions. She asked in a gentle tone :

Why are you sitting here all alone , late?

Nothing , Just waiting for someone. Did you find Science block then? I asked to change the topic.

Yes , you told the directions so nicely. She smiled as she replied

(And i was reminded of all those events. I blushed at her remark)

How come you here so late?

I live in girls hostel nearby.At that time i came out of other gate after my work was done. Also then I saw you sitting here only. Did you find her ? Her face grew sad while she asked.

How do you came to know its ‘Her’ ?( I was not surprised at her remark , she may have been feeling same as I)

Aree its just a slip of tongue , Don’t mind! She defended herself with this lame excuse.

Yes ,I got her. I replied and became shy afterward. I could no longer stay there , you can say i didn’t have courage to face her. Or it was better to walk away that time so that we can know each other better. I can’t locate exact reason for my behavior , I said

Bye see you soon ,I replied and i walked away from there.

Do she feels the same as I . if no , why she came , she do like me no…on the way i was occupied with these questions whose answers only she knew.thoughts clashed and my mind and heart were engaged in fierce battle. At the end mind dominated and put forward these tangled question …..

What if , I like her

What if , she likes me

Untill we say each other….

And then the heart replied :

Absolutely nothing!!!!

—- Shashank